Langdon, the Grail is at the Louvre. So, can we go home now?

Nanood akong Da Vinci code kanina. Well, as expected, it didn't live up to my expectations. Kaya ayaw kong manood ng mga sine ng mga librong binasa ko eh. Kapag nagbabasa kasi ako eh I form a mental picture ukol dun sa mga pangyayaring nagaganap dun sa nobela. Marami ding binago sa istorya. Opus Dei daw si Fache eh diba kristyano sya? Nakasuot pa nga siya ng crux gemnatta diba? Isa pa dito ay isa lang yung cryptex. Wala na yung cryptex sa labas na ang sagot ay sofya. Saka sa dulo eh nagalit si Fache kay Aringarosa samantalang pinatawad ni Fache si Aringarosa sa dulo. Ang pangit tuloy ng image ni Aringarosa dun sa movie samantala dun sa libro eh pinalabas na tao lang siya, nagkakamali din at ginawa lang ang kanyang dapat gawin upang sagipin ang kanyang simbahan sa tiyak na kapahamakan.
Malabo din yung character associations at connection nung mga events dun sa movie. Yun pa ayaw ko sa mga movie versions ng mga libro. Due to time constraints eh pinuputol nila yung storya at minsan di na sila faithful sa storya. Di nagawa ng maayos ang pagchop-chop sa storya ng Da Vinci Code and it leaves big gaping holes in the plotline. Kung di mo binasa yung libro eh di mo maiintindihan yung mga motives ni Aringarosa sa pagsunod nya kay the (yes, the) Teacher, ung connection ni Silas kay Aringarosa at bakit nasunod din siya kay The (yes, again, The) Teacher, kung bakit pinatay ni Teabing si Remy. Unless na pinanood mo yung movie ng maraming beses, movie afficionado ka, magaling kang manghula o malakas ang imagination mo at nagawa mong punan ang mga butas sa plotline ng movie na ito. Para bang binakbak mo yung highway saka tinapalan mo ng lupa
Leche, di nga rin naiayos yung character development! Pero arguably the most beautiful thing in the movie is Sophie! Ang ganda nung accent niya, kuhang kuha. Pati yung image ni ophie na naisip ko eh kuhang-kuha. Arr! sabi ko sakanya. She replied cest la vie?. Maganda rin yung ending na lumabas yung mga miyembro ng Priory ang lufet secret na secret organization yung dating! Maganda din naman yung ending pero di niya nacapture yung sublime sublimity na naenvision ko nung unang bese ko natapos yung libro. Nung lumuhod kasi si Langdon sa pinakadulo ng nobela eh me naramdaman akong kakaibang relief saka wow, asteeg! Meron ding hidden easter egg! Yung isang scene dun eh me dinisplay na poster ng Les Miserables, kung di niyo alam eh yung gumawa nun na si Jean Cocteau eh pinagsususpetsyahang Grand Master ng Priory. Di niyo alam yun no?
Finally, di ko namang pinipigil kayong manood ng sineng ito. Wag lang kayong magpapadala sa mensaheng pinapadala nito. The moral lesson for today is: wag kayong papaloko sa packaging importante

Total Eclipse of The Heart???

Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now i'm only falling apart. haha, luma nga pero nararamdaman mo ba yung kapangyarihan ng kantang to? Parang powerballad to, tulad nung kanta ni journey - open arms... Pero iba pa rin yung carpenters, kahit love song, me mararamdaman ka pa ring kalungkutan. Para bang ube saka bagoong. Recommend ko sayo, yung close to you saka superstar, da best ng carpenters yun!
On a different matter, sa sobrang katamaran ko eh minamani ko na mga RPG ko dito sa bahay. Katatapos ko lang armored core 2, malupit talaga... Sa sobrang wala akong magawa, 999,999,999 na pera ko. Ang galing ko no? Wait, wag mo na saking sabihin, alam ko na yun! Ikaw naman oh, kung bilib ako sa sarili ko, pano pa kaya yung ibang tao diba? Waaaala muna akong pag-ibig, di pa naman kelangan ng maraming ganun. Ikaw ba me pag-ibig ka na ba sa buhay mo? Buti ka pa...
Well, To the wound that never heals! Isang round pa ng toma! Let's drink to dat!

The Victim Mentality in Pinoy Pop-Culture

Why do filipinos love to watch telenovelas that show nothing but suffering? They love to see the so-called victim mentality. They love to see the hero/heroine to cry and wallow in the ground, crying a river out till their eyes go red. They feel sooo touched when the villain embarasses the protagonist. Maybe the Filipino people have one time or another, in their lives, have experienced what it feels like to be embarassed or be the unfortunate target of fate's wrong end. Probably they experience so much suffering but can't find means to release it so they turn to these telenovelas.
But again, to present a conspiracy theory, maybe the government is consorting with the writers, telling them to squeeze as much as suffering they can to the thin story without making the show seem like hell. Maybe it's because the graft and corruption, dishonesty and discrepancies in the government are really making our lives hell so they infuse in the pop-culture mind (even the young ones, mind you, it pays to start early) the theme of the classic filipino telenovela: she meets him, mother/father separate them, she suffers under whoever related to him that is jealous of her, she suffers some more. After having some success in life, the jealous one comes back. She suffers more. After more suffering, she finally gets the guy and gets filthy rich. End of story.
Maybe it's the government's way of telling us to just hang in there and suffer coz' one day we are gonna change and you are getting the life you want. What they are doing is to lull us to a false sense of security. When I see these types of shows, I feel insulted. Yeah, really insulted that I want to watch another crappy commercial instead. The themes in these types of shows are basically the same. They edit or what I like to call "cannibalize" old stories, edit it a little, change the names, wrap it in some glitzy gift wrap and there you have it! Another bestseller!
You call it a masterpiece? Well, I'll call it regurgitated garbege. What is it you see in suffering that you take enjoyment of? The preconceived notions that "they" have planted in the Filipino

Friedrich Nietzsche - Theory of Eternal Recurrence

Malupit to mga tol: theory of eternal recurrence. It states that Time is infinite but physical forms i.e. everything, is just finite. It means that there is a limit on the combinations or probabilities that it could form. To explain further: there are many probabilities like the life and the universe we are in. Nauubos lahat ng combination at probabilities and eventually eh uulitin din natin ang buhay na ito... Therefore, we are doomed to repeat this life again and again, seeing to it that our time is eternal and will not end. Maraming philsophers na nagsasabi na irrational ito pero in my most humble opinion, philosophy on matters like this eh di na natin siya masisisi. Attempt lang natin yun na maintindihan and Divine Order ng universe. Well, sa sarili kong theory of (name under process) states that give man an eternal life and he/she will achieve godlike tasks. It is because man is forever condemmed to repeat it's own mistakes and man only uses a fraction of his brain power. It is also due to the fact that man has a separate entity. If we were to have collective consciousness and eternal life, we will not be condemmed to repeat the same mistakes therefore we will improve with time. Ika nga practice makes perfect diba?
Hindi ko naman minamaliit si God pero malaki ang magagawa kung magkakaron tayo ng collective consciousness. Para bang nung nangyari sa End of Eva, naging isa ang lahat ng tao. Diba maganda yun? Instantaneous ang processing ng ideas, communication saka wala ng away away dahil sa individual differences ng tao. Follow up nyo dito sa blog ko ang magiging pangalan ng mga theory ko... also, comment naman kayo dyan and you are welcome to share your theories. Nandyan YM/email ko sa profile page...

Trivial Pursuits

Wala akong magawa, kaya ayaw ko ng bakasyon eh... pakamatay kaya ako? Buti pa kapag me pasok eh naandar ang utak ko, nadaloy ang dugo sa utak ko. Ngayon tuloy eh nalulong ako sa strength training (sarili kong program). Ang ginagawa dito eh ang tuloy tuloy na set ng mga push-up, sit-ups saka pagtatrabaho sa bahay hanggang mapagod at di na makahinga. Masarap ang pakiramdam kapag pagod na pagod ka na, tapos iinom ka ng kape... Tuwing mangyayari ito eh nararamdaman ko ang laki na pala ng pinagbago ko simula noong 2nd yr HS ko. Di lang sa pangangatwan ngunit sa pagiisip na rin. Isa na rin sa pinagkakaabalahan ko ngayon ay nakikinig ako sa mga classical at neo-classical na mga piyesa at minememorize ko. Pagkatapos ay ipeplay ko sa isip ko ng paulit ulit habang naglilinis ako ng bahay, naghuhugas ng pinggan at maya maya na ay memorize ko na! Parang isang mahabang Last Song Syndrome na nakakabaliw, hindi ko maalis sa isip ko hanggang di ko natatapos yung kanta sa isip ko. Naging task ko rin na basahin ulit lahat ng koleksyon ko ng libro. Mga 70 na libro to at sa current rate ko na 2 days per book ay mukhang di na aabot sa pasukan ang koleksyon ko... Kaya kelangan ko pang bumili ng mga libro!!!

Destrado

Destrado is the energy of the self-destructive impulse. It is the antonym of libido. While libido is the urge to create, destrado is the urge to destroy, both yourself and everything around you. It is a less well known life force, and is usually ignored in place of more well known and well defined theories on human emotion. A normal person has both of this impulses as a normal person has to have a balance of both positive and negative forces. Therefore; you can't trust a person with a very one-sided behaviour, meaning that the person is so good that you begin to doubt wether the person is true to himself. I have heard cases where persons of such prominence and decorum have fits of depression and severe mania. It is because their repression system has finally given out. Imagine this: you are in a hall, listening to a declamation when suddenly a man shouts and rants about his anger. Naturally, he is a disturbance and the speaker requests that this person be ejected from the hall. To prevent this person from entering again, he stations two able-bodied men infront of the doors. Eventually the guards will be tired and the disturbed man will be able to go back. Liken the guards as the repression system of the brain.Haha, wala lang akong magawa kawawa naman kayo, iintindihin niyo lang ang mahaba kong naisulat tungkol sa pilosopiya na most likely, eh wa;a kayong pakialam. Nakita ko itong subject na ito sa aking paghahanap ng topic tungkol sa tragedy of the commons sa net. Dahil wala akong magawa, nahilig ako sa pagsusulat ng mga diskurso tungkol sa pilosopiya kaya tuwing pupunta kayo dito, consider nyo na nakareceive kayo ng messages from the higher consciousness.

The Onslaught of Commercialism

It's the same concept, the same story but the corporations insist to repackage truths and shroud them in the deceitful cover of social acceptance and trendiness. They have taken our ideals that we can readily achieve through our own abilities, wrapped it in the glitzy glamour of garbage wrap and attatched to it the shameful price tag. They have degraded our abilities and declared that true success can only come from them. Why should I delude myself, believing that my potential and what I can do can be bound by their social rules which is based on prejudice and preconceived notions? Here I am, campaigning for higher thought and I am met only by hard looks and stares of bewilderment? I am almost always met by comments on my nature of thought. Nobody wants to think deeply anymore, the corporations have infused so deeply in the pop-culture youth that thinking deeply does not matter as long as you have something to delude yourself into thinking that you are emotionaly secure. Yes, probably you will think that I'm crazy but I have comfort in the knowledge that I act upon my own choices. This may be a solitary path but I have made it my life's mission to spread this line of thought so I may save others from the onslaught of commercialism

comatose

yeah, I'm in helpless state. I have absolutely all the time I want but I can't seem to find uses for it. It's the reverse side of my semesters; I have so many things to do but I don't have the time. Sleep used to be a very valuable treat for me but now I can't sleep. It's not that I don't have the time but it's that I can't do it. It is like being in a constant state of caffeine intoxication, lately I've been consuming large amounts of iced coffee that I expect to sweat coffee anytime soon. There's just something about coffee I can't resist (I brew my own coffee and it's much better than starbucks haha). Then, I have developed this craving for tea. I love the flavor and aroma of chinese green tea and it helps me relax. You should try it sometime, lying outside at around 1:00 in the morning sipping tea and watching the minutes fly by. I find these hours so inspiring to write my book. It's a collection of journals that discuss my trivial pursuits, theories on human behavior, (watch out, i'm gonna post them sometime soon) food and current events. Still, I can't find someone willing to publish these, as to these journals degrade the people who created useless needs and is feeding on the masses' minds which from now on, I shall call them the "corporations". Expect to hear more about them these coming days.
Boredom is such a bummer, I have nothing to do, writing this journal and expecting you to drop me a message. will you rise to the call?

Delusional Extremeties

Pop culture trend arises from the preconceived notions that the commercialized media presents to the gullible masses. They create needs that in reality are just complications to the life and are therefore bonds that prevent the true intellectual potential of the masses. The moral lesson for today is Watch crap long enough and you become crap.