Empty, but happy nonetheless

Despite the fact that everything is crashing down before my very eyes, I feel strangely happy. It's that feeling where you suddenly feel content at your state, no matter how much despair or suicidal you feel at the moment. I forget why I am all alone here infront of the pc and indulging in solitary pursuits. The only thing on my mind is that feeling of letting go, whatever is weighing me down at the moment.

It's an empty feeling but at least the weight on my shoulders is not heavy . Better remember this as tomorrow when I regain consciousness, everything will feel like shite again. I have to pick myself up again, sling my emotional baggage over my shoulder and continue on to God knows where..