Apologies in the Air
Please understand him. Sometimes he just doesn't know or care what comes out of his mouth (which is sometimes the truth). His mind is in a constant state of disarray because he is currently contemplating a retreat from his life i.e. suicide due to the terminal boredom. He despises mental inactivity so he is constantly seeking diversions so he will not fall into the horrible pit of self pity and depression. He is always full of repressed hate and discontent and if this sometimes manifests in his words and acts, for this he is truly sorry.
He accepts that he is a deluded and crazy child and he does not deserve the love of his parents. But even with this knowledge he still resists suicide because dying nowadays is expensive and even if you could ensure your body will never be found, they will still spend large amounts of money just to find your body, given the current socio-political situation of the Philippines. He wants to go out with a bang and he means BANG with the huge fireball, clashing swords, flying bullets whipping past him as he does the unthinkable: save the world. Suicide is the way out for wussies of no moral fibre.
Now where was I? Oh yeah.
Again, he is sorry for wanting to experience everything he can experience in this life. (What can you expect of a person who always thought he would die early and whose guiding principles include carpe diem, in memento mori?) He is truly sincere but he can't tell you this right infront of your face, he does not want to know what he feels for he is better suited to living the way he wants to.
*These events happened while he was lying catatonic in the floor around 8:00 - 8:30 in the evening
He accepts that he is a deluded and crazy child and he does not deserve the love of his parents. But even with this knowledge he still resists suicide because dying nowadays is expensive and even if you could ensure your body will never be found, they will still spend large amounts of money just to find your body, given the current socio-political situation of the Philippines. He wants to go out with a bang and he means BANG with the huge fireball, clashing swords, flying bullets whipping past him as he does the unthinkable: save the world. Suicide is the way out for wussies of no moral fibre.
Now where was I? Oh yeah.
Again, he is sorry for wanting to experience everything he can experience in this life. (What can you expect of a person who always thought he would die early and whose guiding principles include carpe diem, in memento mori?) He is truly sincere but he can't tell you this right infront of your face, he does not want to know what he feels for he is better suited to living the way he wants to.
*These events happened while he was lying catatonic in the floor around 8:00 - 8:30 in the evening
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