You are not alone

I am 12 years old again as I opened the avi rip of Evangelion: You are not alone and this triggered a wave of nostalgia on how my obsession towards this psychological mecha anime had led the way towards whatever thing I am obsessed right now (I change obsessions every few weeks) and put itself in a definitive spot in my life.

Call me an otaku but Neon Genesis Evangelion marked my initiation to the world of Freud, cabbalism, classical music, j-pop (ugh), suicidal tendencies and mental imbalances I often feign as an excuse for various things.

As a mecha anime, Evangelion had dipped into many other areas such as occult, psychology, Judeo-Christian religion and psychoanalysis. These, thrown with the twisted reasoning of Hideaki Anno (the series’ director) results in a wicked mélange of mindgames in which you try to figure out what the characters are thinking and where the plot is leading you into. This is what makes it unique, as Evangelion, 10 years ago, aspired to revive the stagnating genre of mecha anime. This mélange, however, led me to formulate my own theories on the perfection and stagnation of man, along with my current view on religion.

I don’t know why, but what I am writing sounds entirely disconnected, as if the paragraphs are not melding together in my hands. But even if they were not, the words spilling to the ground which refused to come together at my hands will water the soil and recycle themselves as new words as time comes to pass. In other words, I am just looking for a quick way to finish this because I can’t wait to resume watching that deeply disturbed movie, Evangelion: You are not alone.