stop the world I wanna get off

the past few days have been so fast paced. I'm even surprised that I don't even have the time to feel tired as things have been dropping on me from nowhere and cluttering my schedule with them.
first, the bataan trip. I barely noticed it.
the next day - monday, a connection was made. the next few hours, it was broken. just like that.
along came tuesday, where I saw something that was never meant for my eyes. I came to know something that not for me, something that was best left unknown for it will result me and her great discomfort. and this is not a scandal. haha (*expressionless laugh).
this night, I tried to repair a relationship from last year.
hopefully it will go well.
I feel so... methodical. I can't feel emotions anymore and been doing everything with clear cut precision. It has a rigid destination which is what I've always hated.
It's too technical and lacks personality.
am I losing my personality?